Being surrounded by people doesn’t mean we are connected. 

While being sandwiched in a crowded MRT, I observed how people are using their smartphones or books to form their personal space.

Heads down, eyes on their screen, earphone on—like a fortress to protect their personal space, when they have little choice but to share more than what they like of their physical space.

So many people being together, yet not connected, alone in their world.

That’s when I thought of this irony:

Quotes on modern life
Questions to ponder: Is there anything that we can do about this? Is there a need to?

Tell the devil who wants to steal your peace, “not today!”

“Could this be how it feels like if my husband is no longer around?”—asked my heart, as I trod out of the church auditorium into a sea of people who were mostly chatting with someone—while I stood there momentarily lost, and alone. Continue reading →

Peace amidst storm

Thoughts from my husband’s cancer diagnosis

This post is a way for me to process my thoughts—four days after knowing that my husband has cancer. It is also for our family and friends who are concerned with how we are feeling with the diagnosis. It is my prayer too that it’ll be a sharing of hope for you.

I’ll be posting more about this on this blog (and probably not anywhere else) from time to time. You can subscribe to my newsletter to receive updates whenever I post something new.  Continue reading →

The battle with anger is on.

Diary entry: The only hope in this post is my hope in the Lord who will work His way in me, turning this angry tyrant into a mature person. Sigh.


Off! Flew the chopsticks; as I demonstrated my anger vividly.

Such a tyrant-like behaviour from me. Over petty matters. Really stupid matters.

Fall.
Fallen.
Fell.

I have no idea where was my PAUSE button. Where IS.
Is it something that God will change in a snap of His finger?
Or, do I have to work HARD at it?
How can I do so when I can’t see the PAUSE button?

I tried.

I read Bible verses about anger. Cringing in shame when it pointed out the fools who were ruled by their anger outburst and careless words.
I’m that fool.

I read ways of communicating my displeasure—none of which that involves the throwing of chopsticks, raising of voice, nor cussing.

But still.

I let it get to me.
I let it.

Like an itch I must scratch.
I let that anger escape loudly.

The only thing is, instead of a soothing aahh when an itch was scratched and therefore relieved—nothing is soothing about sinning in anger.

Nothing.

It vomits and splatters on everyone in its path.
Messy.
Ugly.
Smelly.
All over the place, uncontained.

Lord, Lord, what is to become of me?

 

Even when it hurts-Hillsong UNITED

I’m sharing this video and the heart-wrenching words/message from Hillsong UNITED. ‘Even When it Hurts’ is a Praise Song—not exactly in the new-traditional happy-clappy-Sunday-morning sense—no, this is the kind written to sound its loudest in the cold, lonely silence of the darkest night, or the heart-drenched-desperation of the heaviest of tears. Continue reading →