Where are you with your relationship with God?
Have you wandered? Have you returned?
We can love God, yet wander away from Him. It’s not done intentionally. It’s not necessarily falling away from God and all that prodigal son thing either.
To me, there’s more danger in being naive about those little wanderings away…until they all add up. And then we exclaimed, how did we end up where we are??We are prone to wander. When our attention is caught by a busy life, good intentions, our worries, our dreams! Click To Tweet
I’ve wandered from God
By the time I realised I’ve wandered from God, a year has passed. I didn’t notice that my heart went astray.
For me, my wandering is placing God at a lesser position compared with everything else.
Things were somewhat settling down in my life (problems are still there, but it’s no longer stirred). I became more comfortable with my life. Being comfortable led to being complacent. Being complacent distracted me and I became careless with my relationship with God.
Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you. Philippians 4:9 NIV
I wasn’t putting His words into practice. I wasn’t guarding my heart, letting weeds grow wild in the garden of my heart, choking it.
No wonder I couldn’t find peace in my heart. I was utterly distracted. In need of a Shepherd. And I’ve placed my Shepherd in second place, third place…?
God drew me back
Through His mercy, God drew me back to Him.
Somehow, when I was travelling for about two months, I felt restless and a sense of something is amiss.
It’s when I came home from my travels, I yearned to grow some root and to stay put for some time. I needed some stability. The yearning turned out to be symbolic of my spiritual life.
It was during Advent that I have this urge of wanting nothing but the Lord. For the reverence to return in full force, and then—to desire Him more.
This kind of yearning simply can’t come from man’s heart if God doesn’t orchestrate it.
Full of anticipation, I was expecting a quiet time of doing that—returning to Him. Taking my time, tasting the pleasures, having lots of mind space and heart space to do so.
I imagined a quiet, idyllic scene; my perception of a warm and fuzzy Advent and Christmas.
But, it wasn’t to be so.
With nary a warning, rough seas returned. And I was brought back once again on the boat, taken aback at how swift the calm sea can turn chaotic.
Like a sailor on the deck of her boat, made drunken by the tossing waves, I took in the scene happening around me. And I penned down the below:
As my husband and I are preparing our hearts this Advent leading up to Christmas, this crisis happened. This shake-up made me remember deep in my gut, the reason why He came—to save man from eternal damnation and death.
The fact is, we suffer from the brokenness of the fallen world. But through Jesus’ death and resurrection, we have the ultimate hope of restoration.
What a poignant way to remember Him. To revere Him. To thank Him for His love, justice and mercy.
We are prone to wander in our relationship with God. Sometimes we are aware and we make our way back to our Shepherd. But sometimes for too long, we are unaware of our own wanderings and that we are heading towards a disaster.
In God’s mercy, He draws us back to Him—if we listen.
He can speak through His words from the Bible.
He can speak through others.
And He can speak through circumstances (often unpleasant) to get our attention.
He got my attention.
Perhaps, I learn better through real-life situations—what it meant to revere and desire nothing but the LORD Almighty. And for that, through the storm, I will proclaim, Hallelujah!
p.s. Where are you with God?