Tell the devil who wants to steal your peace, "not today!"
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Tell the devil who wants to steal your peace, “not today!”


“Could this be how it feels like if my husband is no longer around?”, asked my heart, as I trod out of the church auditorium into a sea of people who were mostly chatting with someone—while I stood there momentarily lost and alone.

Ever since he got diagnosed with lymphoma, I didn’t ruminate on the possibilities of losing him.

However, that thought outside the church auditorium floated out of nowhere, and it made my heart grimaced in the pain of imaginary loss. 

This sudden reality check would surface in simple routines which I have grown to love because the man who I love dearly is in those routines.

The fear would surface when I’m having breakfast alone at our favourite breakfast corner at home; in the middle of the night when I stir and felt his warmth beside me; when he is making coffee for both of us.

Gasp! Every time it surfaces, my heart would take a sharp gasp in pain.

When I start speculating on the overwhelming possibilities of what would happen to him, but then I quickly ended those unhelpful thoughts, I still felt it—fear.

The kind of fear that would paralyse me if I let it grow.
The kind of fear that would render me powerless and useless to anyone if I let it overwhelm me.
The kind of fear that would steal my joy and peace if I buy into the lies of destructive imagination.

However, I refuse to allow it to go further to the path of destruction.

Though the imagined situations may not be real, my fear is real. And I want to acknowledge my fear.

 

Would I desire perfect peace that Jesus promises to those who trust in Him? Are you kidding me? Of course, I would. But, expecting to have perfect peace all the time in our imperfect world is insane wishful thinking. Hence, I’m learning to accept unpleasant emotions such as “fear” in my life.

 

So, I told the devil, not today.

Whenever an ounce of self-pity rears its ugly head, pointing out the mounting troubles in my life—still, those mess stands no chance in the face of Love. For as there are many troubles, there are even more blessings that I’ve learnt to recognise.

I’m made rich when I’m poorer.

In the lack of “things-going-right”, through a season of pain when I almost went into depression, I’ve learnt to be extremely thankful for little things. And the love demonstrated by people through acts of care.

 

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So, I told the devil, not today! You don’t get to steal my peace today. 

And I resume my journey of learning to live one day at a time.

This song “Not Today” is a song from Hillsong United that I sing out loud to replace my fear with praise for God.

I pray that whatever situation you may be in, this song will give you the power boost that no motivational quote can give—for this power comes from God’s love to you.

Not Today Lyrics
Words and Music by Joel Houston & Matt Crocker

VERSE 1
Trouble won’t throw me
Won’t break me
Won’t scare me
No more
Fear must have thought I was faithless
When it came for my heart

PRE-CHORUS 1
‘Cause I got a song that will never die
I know Your love is the reason why

CHORUS 1
I’ll sing the night into the morning
I’ll sing the fear into Your praise
I’ll sing my soul into Your presence
Whenever I say Your Name
Let the devil know not today

VERSE 2
Tell me did the enemy panic
As You took up that cross
Tell me did the darkness cry mercy
As You rolled back that rock

PRE-CHORUS 2
‘Cause I know Your life is the life in mine
I know Your love is the reason why

CHORUS 2
I’ll sing the night into the morning
I’ll sing the fear into Your praise
I’ll sing my soul into Your presence
Whenever I say Your Name
Let the devil know not today
Whenever I say Your Name Jesus
Let the devil know not today
Not now not ever again

BRIDGE
Your love stood down death
Crushed the devil’s head
Fear is just a liar
Running out of breath
The fight beneath Your feet
I’m standing on Jesus’ Name
So let the devil know not today
Let the devil know not today No no
Not now not ever again Jesus
Let the devil know not today

 

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