Major drama—This is how I feel in my head.
But, life must go on. This is how I need to exhibit self-control in front of people, especially at work.
While I’m struggling with these, I struggle with God.
In your anger, do not sin. Let go, let God.
These rage, these sense of injustice, these wanting to burst into tears in public, these loneliness of not knowing who to talk to, who can I trust not to judge? And this thought of I should first deal with this with God, and not run to other people. But, I’m having trouble keeping calm and acting as normal as possible. It’s like this darkness trying to fill up the white space, and it feels good to let it be. Yet, I know I must stand guard and not let the Devil have a foothold of my weakness.
Dear Lord, help.