Today is Christmas Day. It’s the day when Jesus is born.
It’s also the 1st anniversary of my mum’s baptism.
A month that my mum has gone home to the Lord.
I wonder how heaven is like?
I wonder if she can see us from heaven?
I wonder if God appoints her to be an angel in heaven now?
But she must be. I think she is an angel sent down to earth many years ago and now her job is done.
For how can anyone love so many people unconditionally?
How can she be so ever forgiving to her mother who abandoned five of them when they can barely fend for themselves at ages 6, 10, 16…??!!
How can she give so much love?
How can she sacrifice so much without asking for anything in return?
How can she do all these if not for love?
And Christ is love. And forgiveness. Therefore she must be an angel sent from God.
I wonder if I can still say sorry to her for all my wrongs.
Or is it unnecessary to do so in heaven?
I know I’m forgiven. Both by Jesus and by my mom. But I really just want to say I’m sorry that I repay her sacrifices with ungrateful things I had done.
I wonder if she had a great party in heaven today since its Christmas?
Is she sleeping on soft, fluffy clouds?
I wonder if God’s voice is the only voice I can hear or I can, too, hear her voice?
I wonder and wonder, will she be my mummy forever and ever when we meet one day in heaven?
Abba Father, your answers?