3 sms & a funeral

3 sms & a funeral

June 15th: My biological dad passed away early this morning. I’m going back to Penang this afternoon…kinda blur in my head now.

That was my SMS to three friends.

Now I’m back in KL. It was certainly a heavy trip to say the very least. But with huge meanings.

I re-learnt the meaning of family, love, forgiveness, friendship, support, sacrifice… and that my late father also listens to The Carpenters as I do.

I’m very glad that everyone got together after so many years. I’m happy to see my Ah Kong, Ah Ma, aunts, cousins & mummy sitting together… didn’t know my family is so big! For all my life, I’m the only ‘Yeoh’.

June 16th: My text message to a friend:

Appreciate your call. I’m ok. Kinda weird coz things r surreal, not logical, suddenly all families bk 2gether. So sudden. He is well-loved by all his siblings. My aunts r loving ppl. We look alike! I’m glad we had the chance2 meet last mth when we knew abt the illness. I hug him4 de 1st time, didn’t know it’s the last.

That’s life.

So for what’s its worth, I’m doing all I can to be a better person, and let go.

Let go of so many bondage that is weighing me down in other areas of my life. The ‘should’, the ‘must’, the quest to be right…

It ain’t gonna be easy, for Miss Control Freak to make like a jello and go with the flow, but I’m going to do what I can.

June 17th: Have u ever attended funeral with alcohol? I just had. 1st & last cheers of beer with my father. Finally started2 break me. But I held on. I hope 2mrw is not tough.

Now, I know where I got my beer genes from. (Sure, blame it on a dead person).

What nearly breaks me that night was the realization that we never sat down to clink our beer mugs together, and I’m doing it on the eve of his cremation.

On the actual funeral day, I had to lead the funeral procession as his only child. I wept silent tears as my head was bowed going through the prayers, drops after drops after drops.

Although kinda confused, there was a sense of peace through the sadness when I sat through the prayers for him, lead the procession, and watched as his coffin was wheeled into the cremation area and the metal door slides down.

Is that it?

Published by Melinda

Writer and artist. Ever learning.

14 thoughts on “3 sms & a funeral

  1. I am very proud of you. Your father will be the proudest person in heaven now blessing your life. You were strong alone sending your father on his journey. He is so happy. I know. You not only inherited his beer gene but his considerate, courteous and manners. God is love. He loves him. I am proud of my father in law.


    1. Hi Alex, thanks for the wishes. :)Thomas- this is a ‘gwai lo’ blog, maybe it can’t recognize chinese words? Ya, I didn’t hv time nor mood to blast the news to the world, and posting it up FB on that day as my status update seems so wrong & weird. Not exactly in social mood then. Thanks for yr concern ya. I’m ok. 🙂


  2. My deepest condolence to you, Mel! So sorry that I only found out about this.
    Anyway, just take it easy. ?????????????Let me know if I can help you in any way. 🙂


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