Surrendering to God

“Will you surrender your life to Me?”

This almost-a-whisper question vanished as quickly as it came into my heart. Being extended this invitation—as weighted as it is—doesn’t shock me. Because that was and is my prayer—more of Christ, less of me. And this prayer has been increasing in intensity and meaning as I find myself losing grip on many life’s circumstances over these two years.


On New Year’s Eve, when our Senior Pastor led us—the church, in asking the Holy Spirit to reveal what is it that we individually need to surrender to Christ; I wasn’t too surprised to hear that gentle whisper from God.

Wasn’t surprised, yet all of my attention was commanded because of the clarity of the question.

“Will you surrender your life to Me?”

It’s no longer my one-sided prayer…but a co-joining of His will to mine.

Jesus’ words from a familiar verse in the Bible, “Follow Me, and I’ll make you fishers of men.” (Matthew 4:19) became a live invitation for me to follow Him.

Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone wishes to come after Me, he must deny himself, and take up his cross and follow Me.”

“For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it; but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it. “For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul? (Matthew 16:24-26)

He didn’t ask me to
Surrender my dreams
Surrender my ambitions
Surrender my family
Surrender my wants
Surrender my rights (and I’ve loads of them)
Or even to surrender…my writing.

God asked for my all.

“Listen carefully: Unless a grain of wheat is buried in the ground, dead to the world, it is never any more than a grain of wheat. But if it is buried, it sprouts and reproduces itself many times over.”

“In the same way, anyone who holds on to life just as it is destroys that life. But if you let it go, reckless in your love, you’ll have it forever, real and eternal.”

“If any of you wants to serve me, then follow me. Then you’ll be where I am, ready to serve at a moment’s notice. The Father will honour and reward anyone who serves me.”
(John 12:24-26, Message)

He heard my prayer. He sees my heart (oh gosh).
As tainted as my heart is, I thirst for that imperfect attainment of the Perfect one.

I covet the day when my heart will be so consumed by my love for God, that I’ll willingly surrender what I love to Him—because I love Him most. When I can say, “not my will, but Your will be done.”

“All I want is your obedience to Me.”

Another gentle whisper from Him to me during a prayer at the end of a recent sermon message.

For two years plus, I have been pestering Him for an answer on which direction of my work/ministry I should take. “God, God, what do You want me to do??”

“All I want is your obedience.”

Did that stop my incessant questions to Him? No. I continued asking for months.

But somewhere in my heart, and even with my logical mind—I know I’m asking the wrong questions.

It’s not about asking Him what He wants me to do. It’s about knowing what He wants.

“All I want is your obedience.” came His clear-as-sky answer.

Do I doubt that God will short-change me if I “hand over my control to Him” and won’t bless my heart’s desires? No! His blessings know no boundaries.

He will bless my socks off even without me asking Him. I’m absolutely confident in that.

But, He knows greater treasures lie beyond my finite desires.

He knows that I know—He is my greatest treasure. It’s just my earthly wants fighting for SELF! vs Christ.

And the wants come in all forms, all situations, even seemingly (deceptively) good ones.

He also knows that I know, as unthinkable as it may be—that if I never get to live out my greatest dream at the end of my life, yet I have everything I need through Him; I would count my life worthwhile and wonderfully rich.

So, He goes straight to the root of the issue—if I want to follow Him, I have to “give up my life”; then I’ll have life abundantly through Him.


[Verse 1]
Where would I run
But to the throne of mercy
Where would I kneel
But at this cross of grace
How great the love
How strong the hand that holds us
Beautiful, so beautiful

[Chorus]
So here, I bow, to lift You high
Jesus, be glorified
In all things, for all my life
I am Yours, forever Yours

[Verse 2]
There is a King
Who bore the scars of healing
There is a Son
Who came in grace and truth
How great the love
That carries us to kindness
Wonderful, You’re wonderful

[Chorus]
So here, I bow, to lift You high
Jesus, be glorified
In all things, for all my life
I am Yours, forever Yours


1 Jan 2018: This is day one of my “Yes, I will surrender my life to You, Jesus.”

It scares me to bits thinking of what would happen? And what would happen to my life??!!

I’ve zero ideas. Zilch.

The only thing I know is I need to look at Him and look to Him in all areas of my life.

Seriously, if He is the driver and captain, I’ll need to listen.

Somehow I know this requires a slower life. Not necessarily in doing less, though that could be practical.

But, I know my quiet time with God will have to be as essential as food.
My prayer life with Him will have to be as essential as air.

I know I will have to stop sprinting ahead against the direction God is moving. And that would be an arduous task for me.

D e e p   b r e a t h e.

So, help me God, amen.


Surrendering to a God who is all-powerful, all-knowing, all-loving; who is alive, the beginning and the end, the Creator of everything is nothing short of amazing. He is worthy.

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