After a late nite out celebrating my bday, woke up groggy & super lazy, not the best feelings. Just wanna laze around, and vegetate, but don’t think it will help much. Will it make it worse?

That’s why I’m sitting in the balcony writing this (in? on? My grammar is beyond hope).

Sometimes too much technology and I dunno which to choose. Upload photos in Picasa and post on Fb, edit, share…? Blogs r also becoming something not of a habit nowadays.

I think, yes, Fb has made all of us much lazier person. Y blog when u can post status under a minute? Hm.

Well, here’s a picture of my breakfast anyway, for no related reason. Haha, that explain the lame state my brain is in now. Hm

……..Y no picture? Coz Wordpress decided to go wonky on me again, damn it.

June 15th- My biological dad passed away early this morning. I’m going back to Penang this afternoon…kinda blur in my head now.

That was my sms to 3 friends whom immediately came to my mind- Jen in Holland; Min in Kl and Kumar in Penang.  (and forever with Coconect in my blood, the precious sms also goes to my team)

Now I’m back in Kl. It was certainly a heavy trip to say the very least. But with huge meanings.

I re-learnt the meaning of family, love, forgiveness, friendship, support, sacrifice…and that my late father also listens to The Carpenters like I do.

I’m very glad that everyone got together, after so many years.  I’m happy to see my Ah Kong, Ah Ma, aunts, cousins & mummy sitting together…didn’t know my family is so big! For all my life, I’m the only ‘Yeoh’.

June 16th After an overseas call from dear Jen:

Appreciate your call. I’m ok. Kinda weird coz things r surreal, not logical, suddenly all families bk 2gether. So sudden. He is well loved by all his siblings. My aunts r loving ppl. We look alike!I’m glad we had the chance2 meet last mth when we knew abt the illness. I hug him4 de 1st time, didn’t know its the last.

That’s life. You won’t know when it will be the last chance. So for what’s its worth, I’m doing all I can to be a better person, and let go. Let go of so many bondages that’s weighing me down in other areas of my life. The ’should’, the ‘must’, the quest to be right…It ain’t gonna be easy, for Miss Control Freak to make like a jello and go with the flow, but I’m going to do what I can.

June 17th Have u ever attended funeral with alchohol? I just had. 1st & last cheers of beer with my father. Finally started2 break me. But I held on. I hope 2mrw is not tough.

Now, I know where I got my beer genes from. (Sure, blame it on a dead person). What nearly breaks me that night was the realization that we never sat down to clink our beer mugs together, and I’m doing it on the eve of his cremation.

I wept silent tears as my head was bowed going through the prayers, drops after drops after drops.

Although kinda confused, there was a sense of peace though sadness when I sat through the prayers for him, lead the procession, and watched as his coffin was wheeled into the cremation area and the metal door slides down. I  knew this was his worldly body, and his soul had left, set free.

He’s in a better place, no more sufferings. And though we didn’t have the chance to spend time together in this world, we have an eternity in heaven.

Happy Father’s Day to my late Father- Robert Yeoh.

Suddenly my eyes teared up (right spelling?) when I read this article, 1st from The Star. Then, obviously I get all googley and search them out.

The joy of back to basics!

Yes, I admit- the city life had taken something away from me, and I do from time to time yearned for a much simpler life with less ugly human beings. (Mel-the-jaded- talking)

But for now, for a start! Order their farmed-with-love produce, at least I can have my chicken & eat it now! Been abstaining from chicken as much as possible as felt very icky putting hormoned crap in my body. (Beer is still good though, ahahahaha).

No, you may not order an organic dog!

Hmm…I thank God for the opportunity I have in Coconect, for it’s a business that I am developing in line with my dreams that I can operate a business I love from almost anywhere when it’s up & running. Hurray for internet! I love my work, man, I love it!

What a blast!

Unexpected long weekend turned fab & FUNtastic! A much needed change after lonnnnnnnnng period of blahness (yes, even with the business high), kept forgetting that my SOUL is bitching about me ignoring her. No wonder the pesky black moods, the restlessness!

1st up, Friday!

1st purchase, tasted blood ... ON with my spree!!

Since my allocated budget doesn’t allow any last minute short get away, I did the next best thing- attempt to see if shopping will be the therapy. Heck, I need to SPEND my allocated Play $ ok! (to those who’s curious, it’s my money management system which works excellently well, I get to not only save, but invest and PLAY as well)

On impulse, I remembered my wanting to buy Swatch courtesy of their latest ad in The Sun- so damn colourful! And yes, I’m a sucker for ads. Ditto for Mcd breakfast & coffee ad. Works for me baby, works for me.

(Don’t ask me how I got insane, and dare ventured into Mad Valley on a public holiday, seriously)

Amongst others…3 tops, 2 nail polish, eye masks…

Then, impromptu meet up with long time gal pal for a pint (HAH! A pint?!). It was an emo ride that night coz 3 of us, Min, Jen, Mel used to be so happy together (cue: music) till Jen uprooted herself from Msia. We missed each other so much. Seriously, I’m thinking how on earth, and where the heck can I find such gal pals that can drink as much as i can (no, that’s not right)…where the heck to find gal pals that knows each other as we have. (cue: emo tears coming up!)

Sat nite- tonight’s gonna be a good night.

Let’s get ready with a mani & pedi…

Diy mani pedi fun bling bling for a fun nite out!

Then, a mmmmmmassage.

Finally after the dinosaur age, I dragged my sorry ass to get myself an overdue massage. A solid 2 hours of massage with one hour solely focusing on my battered neck & shoulders. So gooooooood.

All set for a hot night!

Date with darling & a certain hot Jap!

We love this place! Love it!

Forgotten the name- but yes, they serve sake! Hooray!

A happy cat!

Er…after more drinks at Changkat. Yes, it’s a must have, Ramly/ Otai after drinking session, best combo ever! (That explains why I don’t go crazy and drink regularly, please calculate how many hours I have to work out to burn those buggers off!)

Round it all up Sunday!

Well rested and with loads of happy energy to boot, I went around ‘prettying’ up our home.

Bought outside our fav veg indian shop Chat Masala in Brickfields

Planned my work for next week. And will attempt my very first home made fruit mask! (No, that photo is the one u won’t c)

Think some of it will be achieved sooner

Oh, even made my bday wish-comes true note well in advance (Ok, ok, it’s my to do reminder la)

I’m one well rested, happy cat ready to face the week again with gusto, yes I am, wheee!

19.5.2010 8.10am Wed

If u have been wondering like I do, why on earth this bloody blog doesn’t have any pictures, videos, well…one day, WordPress decided to somehow screw with this non tech knowledge gal and won’t let me upload any photos at all.

I have been wanting to get it fix- ie: Pass it to Jen- my more tech friend.

Have the ‘privilege’ of sending 3 kids to school today. (Hubby/driver not feeling well).We do the car-pool thing with our neighbor  to <ohhhhhhh> (do the God-like sound here) save the environment…but I suspect hidden somewhere, is actually to save our sanity coz we get to take turns sending the kids instead of the daily madness. Yay! I don’t know the joy of polluting the environment with one kid in the car, and braving the daily traffic every single day. I really don’t know, you tell me.

So, yeah, I woke up half an hour ish earlier, didn’t kill me. In fact, felt damn good. (The quietness after the kids have been dropped off that is).

Presented with sudden extra time on my hands, I’m like a kid in a candy store! So many things, which one? Which one?

Should I write? Should I Fb (er). Should I go out for a long, lazy breakfast (my fav!!)…should I start work earlier? (Yes, even that is an option). My gym routine today will be in the evening rather than morning…so gym is out.

So, now I’m going with the flow and write, I mean typing down my ramblings in the morning. Treating my poor neglected soul squashed aside with increasing To-dos.

Looking forward to a productive day at Coconect. Missing a bit of fun last week.

Would be nicer if i can post up some photos though!

I am utterly in love!

With my work, that is. What a difference from those long gone employed-and doing something that I don’t love days many, many moons ago.

Where being able to take a medical cert was a joy! (those days were gone during my last days in advertising where if I’m not dead, I better drag by sorry ass to work).

Now, sensing a wicked flu is sneaking up on me on a Sunday night, I’m more filled with dread than yay! Whipped up all theVit C I can get from the kitchen, loads of water…and yes, sleep sleep sleep!  Coz I’m looking forward to some kick-ass work week and lots of fun!

Flu begone! Shooo!!!!

This tune kept running in my mind for past one week. And especially today.

If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change

Nothing can be more profound that this. Be it to be the first one to smile, when the others are frowning; Be it to give, when you don’t think you have enough to give; to love, when there’s no guarantee to be loved back; be it to be open, when you feel vulnerable.

We are all children of the world. Make That Change.

Man In The Mirror (complete with the ows, oohs, crotch grabbing and what have you-s)

I’m Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It’s Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .

As I, Turn Up The Collar On My
Favourite Winter Coat
This Wind Is Blowin’ My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street,
With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind?
Pretending Not To See
Their Needs
A Summer’s Disregard,
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man’s Soul
They Follow Each Other On
The Wind Ya’ Know
‘Cause They Got Nowhere
To Go
That’s Why I Want You To
Know

I’m Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I’m Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change)
(Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah)

I’ve Been A Victim Of A Selfish
Kind Of Love
It’s Time That I Realize
That There Are Some With No
Home, Not A Nickel To Loan
Could It Be Really Me,
Pretending That They’re Not
Alone?

A Willow Deeply Scarred,
Somebody’s Broken Heart
And A Washed-Out Dream
(Washed-Out Dream)
They Follow The Pattern Of
The Wind, Ya’ See
Cause They Got No Place
To Be
That’s Why I’m Starting With
Me
(Starting With Me!)

I’m Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I’m Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Ooh!)
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)

I’m Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I’m Asking Him To Change His
Ways
(Change His Ways-Ooh!)
And No Message Could’ve
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .)
Change!

I’m Starting With The Man In
The Mirror,
(Man In The Mirror-Oh
Yeah!)
I’m Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make The Change)
(You Gotta Get It Right, While
You Got The Time)
(’Cause When You Close Your
Heart)
You Can’t Close Your . . .Your
Mind!
(Then You Close Your . . .
Mind!)
That Man, That Man, That
Man, That Man
With That Man In The Mirror
(Man In The Mirror, Oh Yeah!)
That Man, That Man, That Man
I’m Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
You Know . . .That Man
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Oh Yeah!)
Gonna Feel Real Good Now!
Yeah Yeah! Yeah Yeah!
Yeah Yeah!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Ooooh . . .)
Oh No, No No . . .
I’m Gonna Make A Change
It’s Gonna Feel Real Good!
Come On!
(Change . . .)
Just Lift Yourself
You Know
You’ve Got To Stop It.
Yourself!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
I’ve Got To Make That Change,
Today!
Hoo!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Got To
You Got To Not Let Yourself . . .
Brother . . .
Hoo!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
You Know-I’ve Got To Get
That Man, That Man . . .
(Man In The Mirror)
You’ve Got To
You’ve Got To Move! Come
On! Come On!
You Got To . . .
Stand Up! Stand Up!
Stand Up!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Stand Up And Lift
Yourself, Now!
(Man In The Mirror)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Aaow!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Gonna Make That Change . . .
Come On!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know . . .
(Change . . .)
Make That Change.

Still searching for a tech solution to our backend.

Spent a few good hours compiling data to be sent for printing- it’s No Joke.

And I’m very detailed (ya ya, anal- I have to admit), so I will help my customers to make sure everything is in tip top order, which is another No Joke area, tedious like hell. My left arm all the way up to my eyes are kinda numb now, I wonder if I will have a stroke soon?

Got a bit cheesed off by team today, some adjustment gotta be done. It’s a delicate balance being assertive, motivating yet not be too harsh- it’s No Joke.

Few hours in the morning gone as I had to compile my docs to be submitted to the bank to get car loan for my new ‘downgraded’ car.

Glad to be having my independence back in 2 weeks time. Msia + no car of your own? = No Joke!

Took a end of day break (before the 2nd half of the day begins at 6pm) by collapsing on the kitchen floor, Tim Tam at hand, listening to my old skool radio player which can only play radio and nothing else.

Thoughts running thru my mind during a solo (very nice) Sunday brekkie at Mcd.

• My almost new Samsung netbook is damn slow.

• Attitude, above everything determines whether a person is gonna be successful or not, not education- ‘Inspired’ by the chap behind the counter serving us, paying consumers.

• One have to be extra patient dealing with service staffs and anything that requires customer service in Msia- Msia boleh!

• There’s no need to give 6 serviettes when I’m only one customer.

• They don’t call me determine for nothing- This morning upon rising, I have a vision of me satisfying my craving for Mcd Premium Roast Coffee (yes, you Starbucks snobs out there)- on the upper level (no chilly air-con) of Bangsar outlet (pray there’s very little smokers). And damn it! This vision gotta be realized! And it is.

• Just in case my mood swings- I brought along my netbook, Richard Branson book, how I love thee, and to be extra safe, Sunday Star. A very prepared person (can sometimes read as a paranoid bore)

Happy Sunday everyone! It’s 10 more minutes to the free refill ends, I better go, mwuah hahahaha.

After a 3D movies too many, still bewildered after Alice-not-so-Wonderland, I experienced whats it’s like once again to watch a brilliant movie, not relying on heavy CG to boost ratings-all human, flesh, blood (not literally), emotions, yummy dance moves, sexy costumes, passion with capital P!

Watched Nine tonight- a movie filled with some of the most luscious women in Hollywood, good script that shows the f@cked up yet devilishly delicious side of evil. Makes me wanna sneer the word F@ck, thru pursed lips, clenched teeth and massive dosage of passion. -

Post updated with Tiger pint(s), one of my fav after movie treat. And yes, my dear Penang kaki Kumar-I did skyped this afternoon that beer will wait til next week. But as my husband beside me whom commented-next week came early, eh? Very much so, darling, very much so.

Thanks to our brilliant broadband, I tried to post this using hubby’s E61 on the very night during our post-movie drinkies, but couldn’t do so. So, here you go, a movie review of a great (musical) movie way overshadowed by the madness of the Mad Hatter. Sigh…